Ah, what a day this has been! It is the Lord's day, but to be honest, my heart just wasn't at church today. Rachel woke up with the same severe headache that she went to bed with. Even with her double dosage she was suffering. I knew that I needed to get the media ready for the worship services and that a couple of children would be expecting me to be at church for Elevate, but my heart was home with Rachel.
My dear husband stayed home with her and Hannah and I set out for church. I told the Lord that I was going with a divided heart and I think He just smiled. What I didn't know and what God already knew, was that one of my precious little students had asked Jesus to come into his little heart and be his Savior and He couldn't wait to tell all of us.
"Mrs. Kristi," he said, "I won't be in Elevate today because I need to tell Brother M. that I need him to baptize me!" Praise You, Father! Oh, You are so good. Could this have happened on a better Sunday? Little Ethan was the one that asked so many questions when we did this Salvation Experiment.
I got home from church only to jump out of my skin every time the phone rang. We were so desperate for answers. The pediatrician finally called us around 5:30 this afternoon. I couldn't bring myself to answer the telephone, so my husband did.
Thankfully, we didn't hear words like "tumor" or other unimaginables but he did tell us about a rare genetic disorder that has probably been with Rachel since birth. I can't even pronounce the name but I know that God can and He knows and only He can provide the answers that we are seeking.
My mind is reeling but my heart is thankful. I know that sounds strange. Normally it takes weeks to schedule an MRI, it only took one day. From what we have read online, this diagnosis takes months or years to find. This only took a few days. Clearly, God is in control and I take great comfort in His amazing love and care for Rachel and for us.
I'm crying as I type this...my devotion today was simply written for me...although it was penned in 1925 by L. B. Cowman, Streams in the Desert
Here is what she writes:
Jesus replied, "You may go. Your son will live." The man took Jesus at his word and departed (John 4:50).
Whatever you ask for in prayer, believe. (Mark 11:24)
When you are confronted with a matter that requires immediate prayer, pray until you believe God--until with whole-hearted sincerity you can thank Him for the answer. Never pray in a way that diminishes your faith. You may tell Him you are waiting, still believing and therefore praising Him for the answer. There is nothing that so fully solidifies faith as being so sure of the answer that you can thank God for it.
The beginning of anxiety is the end of faith, and the beginning of true faith is the end of anxiety. George Mueller.
Faith is not a sense, nor sight, nor reason, but simply taking God at His word. Christmas Evans.
This is the time to look up through the storm, and among the trembling, frightened sailors declare, "I have faith in God that it will happen just as He told me." (Acts 27:25).
I love this! I'm clinging to this with every fiber of my being! I believe God is who He says He is and He can do what He says He will do. (Beth Moore, Moore) I'm choosing to believe God!
If you would, please remember us tomorrow as we visit with the pediatrician at 11:30. We are praying that he recommends the right neurologist and neurosurgeon and that we would listen to the Lord's leading every step of the way.
From this momma's heart, I thank you so much for your prayers. (Crying again) You'll never know how much your generosity in prayer means to us!
Believing and Trusting God,