...you just have to:
And this week has already been one of those weeks. A week where I feel I might lose my witness if I react the way I would really like to act....on a week where I would really like to curl up in a ball and cry like a baby because I miss my college daughter so much it hurts....a week where I am tired of being creatively copied or in an unseen competition with another person (there is room for all of us)....on a week where I feel like I am singing Adam Lambert's, "What Do You Want From Me," song as my theme song in my head all day long....and I could go on and on but I'll stop there (too much info already).
Moral of the story: I am tired (my mom told me that last night and true to her normal full-of-wisdom self, she is so right) and life is far from normal getting adjusted to not seeing our daughter everyday. What is that saying about "normal" just being a setting on the dryer? Ha! It's time to give a little thought to myself and to slow down a bit. Lately I've been running through myself so I didn't have time to think about how much I miss Rachel...is that working for me? I checked my attitude and my answer is a big fat NO!
So this morning I painted my fingernails red (my favorite color), put on one of my favorite dresses and jewelry to match, had my time with the Lord (best way to start a day), ate blueberries with my cereal (yum!), and made the largest glass of iced coffee ever! Attitude adjustment here I come!
I'm thankful the Lord loves me too much to leave me this way. And instead of getting a spiritual spanking like I expected this morning, He offered encouragement instead. What a Savior!
Nope, I am far from myself these days...but I'm thankful God is still on the throne in my life....and my heart wants my life to reflect that in every situation....so I'll try my best to see as He sees and to act like He would act because that's far better than how I would like to react right now!
And sweet Rachel of mine, if you are reading this: I couldn't be more proud of you! Thank you for your sweet visit home this weekend. It did this heart of mine a great deal of good...until you had to drive back to school. You are soaring so beautifully and it is my joy to watch from the sidelines...I'll find my groove eventually so don't give this a second thought. Go be what God has designed for you to be and He will take care of the rest...including your mother!