Welcome to my little corner of the world. I am so honored by your visit today. My name is Kristi and I am married to my college sweetheart(I refer to him here as "Mr. Incredible"), momma to my 2 beautiful girls who are growing much too quickly, a high school computer teacher, photographer, and a gardener (at times~right now I'm growing weeds). I love to laugh, drink strong Starbucks coffee, take pictures, and be anywhere my family is. Jesus is my Savior and I try so hard to be the wife and momma that He has called me to be. I often fail but He lovingly picks me up, dusts me off, and encourages me that with Him all things are possible. Feel free to join me on this journey of faith, stop in and say hello, look around, and leave a comment~I love comments. Why "Kiki's Corner?" My nephews call me Aunt Kiki and I love that too.

Leaving No Stone....Er Drawer... Unturned

A day in the life of a crazy woman....welcome~
This is me-I'm having a bad hair day, can you tell?

My temper is a bit on the prickly/pointed side much like this little fellow below:

I found him hiding in my garden yesterday amid the tomato plants

and the baby watermelon (delight!)

and the cherry tomatoes....finally some tomatoes

and this beautiful flower:

...that looks nothing like me today! See how calm and content it looks?
Yes, nothing like me today.

I represent that idiom (I didn't say idiot...read carefully) of leaving no stone unturned.
You see today, I am finding myself frantically looking for a very important document in our what I thought was well organized home....um not so much apparently.

I have been looking for this item since yesterday afternoon. Mr. Incredible came home to find me in my lovely panic stricken mode and lovingly asked me if I looked like I did all day long....watch out for the flying sauce pan! Yes, sweetheart I know that I am a feast for the eyes today, but I can't be bothered with vanity when I am searching for my lost item~I think I said....sweetly...well maybe not so much on the sweetly part.

Yesterday was one of THOSE days....
"Growing character days" is what my mom calls it.
I think I retorted that I wasn't interested in growing character today I just wanted to find my lost item and get this church home thing settled because my spirit is not settled and on top of all of this, we may be adding an entirely new class to my schedule that will begin in 3 weeks
(which by the way I am really excited about but my type A personality is screaming that I have to get my lesson plans just right and above all learn this new program).

And I think she chuckled a little (but it was out love I assure you because she is an amazing Daughter of the King and I'm confident that she has been through something similar and she doesn't want to see this child of hers setting herself up for a Holy spanking from the Lord, do you know what I am talking about).

I think I am setting myself up for more character building and it might just be called Grace or the "P" word (patience) or something. How interesting that I am running around like that horned toad who looks confident on the outside but obviously doesn't want to be disturbed by anyone....look at his outside covering.

That must be how I am presenting myself to the Lord....oiy! My stubbornness is saying that I am going to find it....we will find where we are suppose to worship and serve....and I will get my lesson plans in perfect order for the semester before it even begins....I will, I will, I will.

I think there is a pattern here....too much of I will and less of Him.
I think of Paul right now, as the tears well up in my eyes, the kind of tears that seem to have been collecting in my soul for the past few weeks, when he truthfully explains, "For what I am doing, I do not understand; for I am not practicing what I would like to do, but I am doing the very thing I hate" (Romans 7:15).

I know better than to try to do all of this on my own and in my own power, but my impatience gets the best of me and I try to do it in my own strength and in my own timing.
And what does this attitude and behavior accomplish? Absolutely nothing, except make me look like the horned toad....tough and prickly on the outside to everyone around me....just the look I don't want!

I'm so thankful that God looks past the outer exterior of my life and sees His child who really does want to be more like Jesus everyday, okay most days. He sees past my casual attempt at a quiet time because I want to avoid the Refiner's fire that needs to burn away my pride and my do it-on-my-own attitude. Somehow He sees the real me...and He loves me anyway. Oh, there is no one like Him. He waits patiently for me to pour it out and give it up, even for the 1,000th time, and He loves me anyway....He even longs for me to finally surrender me and asked to be filled completely with Him once more....and He always, always does.

Yes, I am still looking for that document, which I am convinced is not here, but I will do it with a joyful heart once again because I won't be doing it in my own strength or on my own. And this child will finally see that it wasn't about the missing document after all. My Faithful Father and I will be looking through every drawer and nook and cranny of my heart....together He and I will leave no stone unturned....and that's just the way He likes it, isn't it?



Tracy said...

Oh I've been there and it is no fun! Lifting a little prayer you find what you're looking for, or at least that you could get a duplicate somehow. Thanks for being real with us. I couldn't help but nod in agreement with much of what you said...praise God he loves us just as much in our ugliness as he does on our best day! Hugs to you sweet friend!

Amy said...

I wanted to share with you that my family and I were at the lake all week this week. Each family took turns making a meal for everyone and I made your shrimp boil. It was such a hit! Everyone LOVED it. Thanks so much for posting it during the recipe blog hop. Blessings friend!

Kim @ Homesteader's Heart said...

Um, I don't like those kind of lessons! I'd rather skip that chapter and move on. But unfortunately the Lord doesn't allow us to cheat and skip.
I know all will be well whether the mystery paper is found or not.
BIG hugs to you my friend.

Beth in NC said...

Oh girl, I've done that before. Ok, don't smack me, but I am going to ask the obvious. Did you ask the Lord to show you were it is hiding?

So many times I have searched for something THEN finally ask the Lord for help. Many times He has led me right to it.

Whatever the outcome, I pray peace and blessings over you. :o)


sister sheri said...

Just wondering if in all your looking... if you have found other things that you completely forgot about... but were glad you found? I do that all the time... and I still haven't found the original thing!

Sarah said...

Kristi, I know it's hard to be looking, searching and not finding. I hope you are blessed by this ... you were the one who was randomly drawn for the book "Streams in the Desert" which is my first and most likely only gift thingie. Thanks for telling me you already had it, we're picking another number.

Sarah Dawn

Leaon Mary said...

My Lieb,

Try what my Gram used to do when she'd lose something... she'd hollar,..... "LORD LEAD ME TO IT!"