29 January 2009
Thank You
I need to tell you that my husband and I have been married for 18 years and we were singing together before we were married. He is the pro in the family. He can learn a song right before we sing it and it is beautiful. Me? Not so much. I have to sing a song until I learn it and feel somewhat confident. You would think after 18+ years of singing with my sweetheart that I wouldn't have butterflies. Nope! I get them every time.
I have to sing from my heart, or I'm not singing. It's that easy. After having less than 15 hours to learn the songs, I was feeling less than confident. Our run through proved my nerves. I was "pitchy" and our harmonies were less than harmonious. It was my fault, not his. I think the emotions of the day were getting to me. Thankfully, we had some time before the service began.
I had a quiet moment to gather my emotions and fall down on my face before the throne. He filled me with His peace that passes all understanding. We were able to sing for His glory. God somehow blended our harmonies once again and He graciously helped me stay on pitch. I pray that He was greatly glorified in the process.
Thank you so much for your prayers. I felt them!
On another note :-) Rachel's headaches are still intense but she went to school with me today. It's lunch time now and she decided that she felt well enough to go off campus with her friends for lunch and she will be in class this afternoon and we are thankful. I so admire her courage!
I need to get back to class. But, before I do, I want to share with you the verse from my devotion this morning:
"God is in the midst of her, she will not be moved; God will help her when morning dawns." Psalm 46:5
Is that cool or what?! I needed that Word today. God is in the midst of Rachel and she will not be moved (although we are praying her headaches move out). God will help Rachel when the morning dawns. It's a new day filled with new opportunities. What a great God we serve!
Joyfully,
Kristi
27 January 2009
In Him our Hearts Rejoice
Please, Respect Your Private Spaces...Oiy!
23 January 2009
Introducing Miss Holy Pants!
21 January 2009
I've Been Tagged...Now You've Been Tagged!
I am doing all that I know to do to care for my precious daughter but it doesn't feel like it's enough. Do you ever feel that way? I know God is all sufficient and that He is sovereign and that He is very aware of Rachel's continual headache that has now lasted almost an entire month but my flesh is growing weary and I fear Rachel's is too. {sob!}
A dear friend of ours named Mrs. Jackie is celebrating her birthday in the hospital today. Her family is praying for a miracle that God would heal her and allow all of them more time together. I spoke with her husband yesterday and we cried together. They are such amazing people. Even in her courageous battle with cancer she and her husband are fervently praying for Rachel. For my Rachel! Isn't that humbling? When Jackie could be so understandably focused on herself, she and her husband are praying for us. And we are praying for them too!
I got to see them both yesterday at the hospital where Mr. Phil and I cried and prayed together. My heart is so burdened for them today. I left there and headed to class. With all of the things going on with Rachel, my body has kind of developed the shakes. I get cold so easily and then my body just starts shaking. It's the strangest thing and such a sight to behold, I'm sure.
Well, yesterday after visiting the hospital, my left eye started twitching. I went to class with my left eye twitching! It must have looked like I was winking at everyone. The more I tried to get it to stop, the more it twitched. Great! I had to explain that I wasn't winking to everyone around me and that I'm normally a pretty put together kind of girl, even though they wouldn't know it from looking at my shaking, winking appearance, and they just laughed. I'm just a mess, aren't I? I'm so thankful that God loves messes like me!
So, in order to divert my attention to happier things today I'm sharing a few of the awards that I have been blessed by this week and a fun meme from Debra. Wanna play too?
Debra at Clothed with Scarlet invited me to play the 10 things I love game. She gave me the letter "B" to work with. How fun! Here goes...10 things I love that start with the letter "B":
This is a photo from our cruise in 2006. Fun memories to remember. My, the girls look so young in this photo!
And then I have been blessed with some awards from some wonderful friends:
BP at Raindrops and Rainbows is such an encourager and prayer warrior. I look forward to reading her blog each day as she shares what God places on her heart. She blessed me with this award. I love her blog too!
Deanna at Deanna's Diary blessed me with this award: (Deanna is a new friend. She is a wonderful encourager and her blog is delightful!)
This award is for ....."This blog invests and believes the PROXIMITY - nearness in space, time and relationships. These blogs are extremely charming. These kind bloggers aim to find and be friends. They are not interested in prizes or self-aggrandizement. Our hope is that when the ribbons of these prizes are cut, even more friendships are propagated. Please give attention to these writers! Deliver this award to eight bloggers who must choose eight more and include this cleverly written text into the body of their award.
And Michele from Michele's Morsals BEElieve blessed me with this (Go check out her blog. She handles every day with grace! God uses her to bless so many!)
Whew! I'm sorry if I overlooked any one. I am overwhelmed by all of your love and encouragement. It is my joy to get to share life with all of you. You bless me more than I'll ever be able to express!!!!!!
I may be breaking the rules, but I simply can't pick only 8 so, I'm picking all of you! Yep, I choose YOU to receive these awards. Please, take them and pass them on. You will never know the encouragement they offer. Thanks for being such a blessing to me!
Encourage One Another
You can see his suburban (gotta like Texas) and his posse. The girls were holding up their signs and waving and...this is the best part....
President Bush leaned as close to the window as possible
waved and smiled as big as Dallas to us!
I know he waved to us because we were the only ones right there...
and we were the only ones holding signs! Delight!
It was so moving, Rachel cried...and then I cried...and then we called Daddy and then my Dad (who was in an important meeting but he answered anyway) and then Granny
and then I had 10 minutes to get to my class that was 18 minutes away.
And...I made it on time. Ta-da!!! I just figured I would name drop the sweet DPS men who kept us company if I ran into one of their fellow officers with his lights flashing. What a fun night and a fun memory.
It's not every day that you get to encourage a President. Who will God place in your path today that needs a little encouragement too? Go for it! You will get a blessing out of it too.
It's so fun to be a part of what God is doing!
20 January 2009
Welcome Home Mr. President!
What so many of us want to say. For all those sleepless nights, I am sure you must have had, For all the prayers I’m sure you prayed, For how you tried to lead us when the way was so unclear, I am sure it wasn’t always evident, but thank you Mr. President!
As we begin praying for the new President of the United States and his family, I just couldn't let today go by without expressing my gratitude and thanks to President and Laura Bush. We welcome home Midland's favorite son and daughter today!
19 January 2009
Haircuts & Basketball
16 January 2009
Prayer for Kelly & Harper
Rachel's Writings
Having a Happy Attitude By: Rachel
Have you ever been so overwhelmed by the things of life that you felt totally helpless and depressed? A recent study shows that if you are positive and happy about things, you will be benefiting your life. The study shows that being happy gives you better health, a longer life,successful relationships, success in work, and better mental health.
I've recently felt the overwhelming feeling that almost everyone has experienced, and to be honest I didn't like it! With the recent discovery of a disorder in my head, the horrible headaches I'm having to experience, and all the work I have to make-up made me feel helpless and alone.
Through all of it I was reminded that I'm not alone and God has blessed me with many things. For one, God made it possible to get me into have an MRI on a Saturday, which is nearly impossible, and we knew the results the very next day. Another thing He did that might seem small to you, but huge to me was that when we went to Fort Worth for a doctor's appointment I really wanted to eat at one of my favorite restaurants, the Macaroni Grill. My parents said that once we got to our hotel that we would try and find one. To our surprise, a Macaroni Grill was in the same parking lot as our hotel! God is so good!
Through these last two weeks I've tried to keep a happy attitude, only because I have so much to be happy for. Sure, I've had my moments and really got upset, but looking at all my heavenly Father has done makes me realize how happy I should be. Having a happy attitude makes you feel better, and is contagious to other people. Try turning your frown upside down!
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Ahhh, God is good! The new treatments are starting to work. She feels like getting out today. We are off to get her beautiful hair trimmed. Doesn't that always make a girl feel better? May each one of you have blessed weekend!
Joyfully,
Kristi
15 January 2009
Why Dads Buy Wiis
For more Friday Funnies, visit Kim.
Thankful for Possibilities
14 January 2009
Not Just for the Birds
Even with the cats below, he is perfectly calm.
Even in the midst of all of the uncertainties and unknowns, I can rest in His hands too.
Don't you just love that? How timely God is.
I am so thankful for His great love for us and for lessons learned from a little bird.
13 January 2009
Special Delivery
Only a few short minutes after posting my cry for TP, and I was really just stating the fact not really expecting to receive any TP, this was found on my front doorstep:
And yes, it is "Ultra Plush" and each of the six rolls equals 12 so we now have the equivalent of 14 rolls. I think the new 2 square rule is off for now. I know my family is delighted.
My old Tassimo, the one I have only had for 5 months cratered before Christmas. They have had my machine in their fix it shop since December 17th. Of all the times to need a caffeine fix, this has been it.
Rachel and I both had a cup. Praise the Lord! Her head is feeling better today. I think the medicine is starting to work and I am so very thankful. We will see tomorrow. But, for today we are going to celebrate.
Now, if you will excuse me.
I'm off to visit the powder room with my new BFF named Charmin Ultra Plush!
Please Send TP
In the middle of the night I was feeling a bit helpless. I'm doing all that I know to do, but still feeling helpless. As I was pouring my heart out to the Lord, He seemed to encourage me to stop fretting and start thanking and praising instead. Of course this is just what I needed to be doing.
I had already poured out my requests for Rachel but I still had a lot of thanks to bring before the throne (Sorry! Bad choice of words w/ a picture of toilet paper at the top of this post. I meant The Throne...I hope you know that). God is so good!
Thank you for standing in the gap for me yesterday. I love ya'll so much!!!!)
12 January 2009
Prayer Request
This is not too difficult for Him, but today it's difficult for us. I reminded Rachel last night, that in our weakness, He is strong. I'm going to try to remember that myself today.
11 January 2009
This Year
(I found this video at sermonspice.com)
09 January 2009
Thanks be to God...Great Things He has Done!
"In him our hearts rejoice, for we trust in his holy name. May Your unfailing love rest upon us, O LORD, even as we put our hope in You." Psalm 33:21, 22
We are just beside ourselves with absolute joy.
Rejoicing,
08 January 2009
More Favor from the Lord.
I'm not sure what tomorrow will hold but I am confident in the One who holds tomorrow and our family in His mighty hands.
The Lord's Favor
P.S. If this is your first visit to my blog, welcome! You can find out more about Rachel's story in the previous 3 posts.
PPS For more Thankful Thursday lists, please visit Iris at Grace Alone.
07 January 2009
The One We Praise
"Heal me, O LORD, and I will be healed; save me and I will be saved, for You are the One I praise." Jeremiah 17:14
It is not uncommon to hear Rachel listening to Skillet or Stellar Kart, or Air 1 while Hannah is listening to one of her favorites too. It gets a bit loud with the dueling bands but the sounds are always full of joy. They both love contemporary Christian music.
Thank you for your incredible prayer support and for joining us on this journey of faith.
06 January 2009
Praising the Lord!
Held Together by His Mighty Hand
I like pretty packages wrapped with beautiful bows. I like for my life to seem like a pretty package tied with a beautiful bow...even though it has never been perfect. I don't particularly like messy...although my mind thinks of our closet in our first apartment that we lived in when we were newlyweds. Oh, my heavens! I don't think we hung anything up for the first 3 months. It was a sight to behold. But, we didn't care. We were in love and that's all that mattered. We are still in love after 18 1/2 years of marriage but most of us choose to use hangers now.
Life seems to be kind of a mess right now. Believe me, I know it's not the mess that it could be, it's just not the neat package I want it to be right now either. I probably should have prefaced this post by saying Rachel and I have slept for only an hour. It's almost four in the morning now. If this post seems more random than usual...well there you go.
While I thought she was in her room sleeping, she was writing 14 pages in her journal. I encouraged her this afternoon to start writing a journal about this new adventure with the Lord. Fourteen pages? Wow! I don't know where she gets this. (I know my posts have been long lately.) She said that she felt much better getting it all out. Writing is cathartic for me too. I was tossing and turning while listening to "Buzz" sleeping, I mean snoring, next to me but all the while praying and thinking. I was watching the clock until it was time to give Rachel another dose of pain medicine. Since I can't seem to go back to sleep I'll just share what we know as of now.
We waited 2 hours to see the pediatrician yesterday. He pretty much confirmed what was already suspected by the radiologists. Our next step is to see a pediatric neurosurgeon. It is not an emergency but we need to see someone as soon as possible. We are asking God to show us to the right doctor and for there to be an opening in his schedule very soon.
God is already answering this prayer. The doctor that was recommended first doesn't specialize in this particular area. Thank you, Father; he is not the right one for us. I hope that you understand why I am not listing the name of the disorder just yet. I will feel more confident about the diagnosis when it is confirmed by the neurosurgeon.
I feel a bit selfish in even mentioning this but maybe this will help you understand my need for my life to be wrapped with a beautiful bow at this moment. My last three classes start in 6 days. What am I going to do? Also, I was asked to start teaching in two weeks for the beloved teacher who recently went home to be with Jesus. She was a big part of my decision to return back to school to become teacher certified. I feel so honored to even be considered for her classes. I just always pictured teaching along side her. They would like for me to start in 2 weeks. What am I going to do?
It's 4 in the morning and I've already had my devotion time with the Lord today. Do you want to know what He said? Often "God does not open paths for us before we come to them, or provide help before help is needed. He does not remove obstacles out of our way before we reach them. Yet when we are at our point of need, God's hand is outstretched" (Streams in the Desert). Oh, He is God and there is nothing that He can't do. He can certainly remove obstacles before we reach them, but if they are removed before we get there, then we would miss seeing His hand at work in our lives, wouldn't we?
I don't need the bow...I need His outstretched hand and the peace in knowing that He has all of the answers and all I have to do is reach out and take His mighty hand.
I like the poem at the end of the devotion for today:
"When you pass through the waters,
Deep the waves may be and cold,
But Jehovah is our refuge,
And His promise is our hold;
For the Lord Himself has said it,
He, the faithful God and true:
"When you come to the waters
You will not go down, BUT THROUGH."
Seas of sorrow, seas of trial,
Bitter anguish, fiercest pain,
Rolling surges of temptation
Sweeping over heart and brain-
They will never overflow us
For we know His Word is true;
All His waves and all His billows
He will lead us safely THROUGH.
Threatening breakers of destruction,
Doubt's insidious undertow,
Will not sink us, will not drag us
Out to ocean depths of woe;
For His promise will sustain us,
Praise the Lord, whose Word is true!
We will not go down, or under,
For He says, "You will pass THROUGH."
Annie Johnson Flint
It's not a bow that holds our life together; it's His hand. I can't think of a better place to be. Can you? So for now I'll take comfort knowing that His mighty hands are holding my family...there is great comfort there.
Joyfully,
Kristi
04 January 2009
Trusting and Believing God
Update on Rachel
We still don't know anything yet, but we are hoping to hear something today. We had to double up on her pain medicine last night. I think it was one of the worst headaches that she has had. MRI's are extremely loud and a a bit scary, so perhaps that is what brought on such terrible pain. Her daddy slept on the couch last night so that she could stay next to me all night. I think that helped all of us get a little bit more sleep.
With my prayers for my precious daughter, I am asking God to guard our minds too. The evil one would certainly like for us to jump off the deep end and start playing the "what if..." game. Instead, I am asking God to guard our hearts and minds. We take great comfort in knowing He is over it all and He loves Rachel even more than we do...which seems incomprehensible to me...but I know it to be true.
On the way to the hospital yesterday, I was telling her about all of you who are so graciously praying for her. We so appreciate your generosity in prayer...more than I can explain.
It's Tough Being a Woman
Joyfully,
Kristi
02 January 2009
Bring that Ball Back Up...I Need a Do-Over!
God used her to encourage me to return to school and finish what He started in me. I am so thankful that I was able to share that with her. I just saw her on the last day of school. She was encouraged by her upcoming treatments and then the Great Physician called her home.
01 January 2009
Contacting Me
Do you have a question for me?
You may contact me at:
kristiatkikiscorner{at} gmail (dot) com
(I'll try to get back to you as soon as possible)