Trying to Smile

The orthopedic doctor did call me late yesterday afternoon to answer my bazillion questions. He wanted to let me know that Hannah fell in an area where there is a growth plate. He said, "the odds are very low that this could be an issue but I just wanted to share that with you so that you would understand why I am being cautious." He went on to explain that yes we could go on our vacation to St John, USVI but that he mainly wanted Hannah to take it easy getting her tan on and lounging by the pool. She loves to snorkel, almost as much as her mother does, so I asked him about that. He paused for a second and then added that he didn't want her to do strenuous snorkeling and definitely no scuba (not a problem there).

We will see him in 2 weeks to find out more. In the meantime, I am trying my best to carefully decide if our trip is really in Hannah's best interest. We have to drive 4 1/2 hours to the metroplex to catch our first flight, catch a second flight in Georgia to St. Thomas, ride in a taxi cab (that is not a very smooth ride) down to the dock, ride by water taxi over to St. John, and then get into our waiting jeeps to drive the hills to our house for the week. Getting to St. John is not easy nor is it quick...but it is always so worth it. I just don't know if we can do it on crutches. And if there is a hairline fracture, we certainly don't want to make it worse. UGH!!!!

In my mind I keep trying to sing the old Twila Paris song, "I will trust you Lord." Part of it says, "Sometimes my little heart can't understand what's in Your will, what's in Your plan. So many times I'm tempted to ask You why,But I can never forget it for long.Lord, what You do could not be wrong.So I believe You, even when I must cry." The song finishes by saying, "I will trust You, Lord." So, I'm trying to trust that His plans are always best, I know that they always are, and asking for guidance and wisdom.

And in an effort to be totally transparent and real with you, I need you to know that I still want to throw myself on the floor like a toddler and have a little fit! Okay, a big fit! We have planned this vacation since this time last year and it is our favorite place on earth! I know that sounds a little spoiled~sorry! But, the trip is paid for, for crying out loud and we have counted the days since January! UGH!

I hope you know me well enough to know that I want Hannah to be well and to not further injure herself and if that means staying home then we will stay home but if we don't get to go she is going to be crushed!

I'm trying to pull up my big girl panties and get on with my day and maybe even smile a little. The fall could have been so much worse. So, in an effort to smile, I thought I would share some pictures from the Monday night games that do make me smile.

This is my youngest nephew who just has one top "big" tooth. He was being ornery at the game eating starbursts. He said, "Aunt Kiki, here is one for you" and he watched me carefully put it in my mouth as he smiled. The starburst wasn't a regular starburst it was the sour kind. Yikes! My eyes watered and I made a funny face and he giggled:



This is my oldest nephew kicked back at the game. I love that smile:







I bought a new lens for my camera and I really like it. I debated about buying a 50mm but instead bought a much lesser expensive 35mm nikon lens. It's a prime lens so I can't zoom but it really captures most of the court instead of only part of it. I'm really liking this lens!

Hannah's team had 2 games Monday night. The 2nd game is the one where she was hurt against a "thug" team (yes, I am still a litte bitter-can you tell?) but the first game they divided our junior high girls into 2 teams and they had to play each other. Here are Hannah and her buddy "S" jumping for the ball. They are both smiling...which makes me smile too:



They even smiled while they were defending each other:



I'm going to try to look at these photos all day long as I try to smile and thank the Lord that things could be much worse then not being able to be on my favorite beach next week if we can't go. Please, excuse me while I go sob!